Sorry I was cruel, I was protecting myself.

I survived the desperate toll dark depression takes.
I may not break even, but babe I’ll never break.

I’ve hardly been outside my room in days
Cause I don’t feel that I deserve the sunshine’s rays.

Like a freeze-dried rose, you will never be,
What you were, what you were to me in memory.

Leave me alone. I just want to lay here in my room and let myself cry. I apologize if I’ve disappointed you. I got lost in my darkness and the light hurts my eyes.

You’ve made me into someone who should not hold a loaded gun.

I was born when I met you
Now I’m dying to forget you

You’re gonna hate me when I tell you everything
You’re gonna question whether you really know me at all.

As soon as I’m left alone
The devil wanders into my soul

I watch you grow away from me in photographs.

I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair and cut my skin
I try everything to make them see me
But all they see is someone that’s not me

The storm is coming but I don’t mind.
People are dying, I close my blinds.

I take a pill to help me through the day
I stay inside until I feel okay

I feel your knife as it goes right in
Cut to my core but I’m not bleeding

It’s not romantic. It’s not the first time. It isn’t magic. It isn’t soulful. It won’t be true for me or you. But it’ll do.

Being a mistress on the side, it might not appeal to fools like you.

I’m gettin’ tired of your shit
You don’t never buy me nothin’.

Oh no, not now. Please not now. I’d just settled into the glass half empty, made myself at home. 

You won’t get the satisfaction
Get a rise from my reaction
You’ll never hear your name at all
In my pretty melody

Rain drain my play away
Sun gun me down and burn me
Nature hates me today
My head distorts reality

I’ve been a bad, bad girl. I’ve been careless with a delicate man. And it’s a sad, sad world when a girl will break a boy just because she can.

Get over that sorrow, girl. The world is always going to be made of this.

You’ll never see the courage I know.